47 Random Questions

My life is busy beyond belief, but I still want to blog. You know what that means…. QUESTIONNAIRE TIME!!!!

1. My full name- This is the internet, soooo no. My first name’s Robyn though, not Juliet, just FYI.
2. Zodiac sign- Scorpio, but I’m not really the mystical type
3. 3 fears- Llamas, elevators, and lack of control.
4. 3 things I love- Musicals, mud, and the color purple.
5. 4 turn on’s-  This
6. 4 turn off’s- ^^^^^^
7. My best friend- I have a cluster, not just one individual.
8. Sexual orientation- Heterosexual. Sorry ladies 😛
9. My best first date- It wasn’t even supposed to be a date, but we ended up getting milkshakes in the middle of a grocery store. It was a blast.
10. How tall am I?- 5’8 and a half. Yep.
11. What do I miss?- Believing that growing up meant kissing boys, getting a driver’s license, and going to college.
12. What time was I born?- Evening, like 8 o’clockish, I think.
13. Favorite color?- Black, unless you count that as the absence of color. Then purple.
14. Do I have a crush?- Yep.
15. Favorite quote- At the moment?”She refused to be bored chiefly because she was not boring.” ~Zelda Fitzgerald
16. Favorite place- There’s a certain resturant
17. Favorite food- Stir fry. This is a recent development. Formerly, I would have said lasagna.
18. Do I use sarcasm?- Never
19. What am I listening to right now?- A Tour in Italy by Bandaid. It’s ridiculously catchy.
20. First thing I notice in new people?- Vocabulary
21. Shoe size?- Why? Do you have a foot fetish, questionnaire?
22. Eye color- Hazel
23. Hair color- My friend Max says it’s “dirty blonde”
24. Favorite style of clothing-A mix between high fashion and the soccer field.
25. Ever done a prank call?- Yep!
26. What color underwear…is this a real question? No.
27. Meaning behind my URL?- See this from two years ago
28. Favorite movie- It changes constantly, but right now it’s Reality Bites
29. Favorite song- Again, this is constantly changing, but probably Roll to Me by Del Amitri at this moment. I’m on a 90’s kick.
30. Favorite band- Possibly The Mountain Goats
31. How I feel right now- Tired
32. Someone I love- Josh. I love Josh.
33. My current relationship status- Perpetually single 😛
34. My relationship with my parents- Complicated. Just don’t bring up spoons or windows…
35. Favorite holiday- Which ever is next. That means it’s currently Halloween!
36. Tattoos and piercings I have – My ears are pierced.
37. Tattoos and piercings I want- None. There’s little that could convince me that I need more needles in my life.
38. The reason I started blogging- It’s cliched, but I wanted to be heard. I like writing and can only take so much approval from my mother.
39. Last book I read?- The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
40. Do I ever get “good morning” or “good evening” texts?- Occasionally
41. Have I ever kissed the last person I texted?- It was my classmate Gloria, so…no.
42. When did I last hold hands?- Friday, I think?
43. How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?- Maybe 15 minutes.
44. Have I shaved my legs in the last three days?- Um, I actually don’t know…
45. Where am I right now?- At home, exhausted.
46. If I was drunk and unable to stand, who’d be taking care of me?- Usually I’d say my friend Jess, but if I’m drunk…she probably is too! So I’ll go with Nate, my poor neighbor/surrogate brother.
47. Do I like my music at a loud or reasonable level?- Define “reasonable”.

You know far more than you ever wanted to about me. But in the interest of fairness, if you answer the survey and link it in the comments, I pinkie promise to not only read it, but to leave a comment of my own. Deal?

 

Waiting

I have little patience. Concentration is a challenge, and waiting rooms are nothing short of torture.  I pace when I’m thinking, I doodle in class, and I tap my foot when it takes too long for someone to come to the point. Inactivity is my Kryptonite. I share the “I want it NOW!” attitude of much of my generation.

Every once in a while, though, I’ll find something worth waiting for. In such cases, my patience is endless. I’ll keep waiting for something I should have given up long ago.

Right now, I’m in one of my waiting periods. I’ve found something that I want desperately. So I wait. And I’ll admit there’s a part of me that wants to burst into action, to do something. But it’s one of those cases where action would case more harm than good.

It’s so hard! There’s a little voice screaming at me, telling me that inactivity is passivity. A wiser, calmer voice reminds me of all the times I acted when I should have just sat down. It plays memory after memory of me running my mouth, doing the wrong thing, or causing damage that could have been avoided if I’d just given myself time to let emotion cool.  I’m such a passionate person that I tend to regret what I say in the heat of the moment.

And it’s not as though I’ve done nothing. If this whole situation were chess, I’ve done the equivalent of placing my opponent’s king in check. Now I just have to wait for their next move, and that’s the difficult part.

September was an emotional month, and so far, October seems to be following suit. To lighten the mood, here are my (unedited) journal entries from the past two days:

Oct. 1, 2012

OMG! It’s OCTOBER!!!! How????? I don’t even know…. So you can see, I am a deep individual.

Oct. 2, 2012

I’m shrouded in a cloud of apathy. Bleh.

 

I know, right? My journal is the most unintelligent piece of writing I have ever had the misfortune of reading (or writing, for that matter!). But I have a theory that if I get out all my bad writing in my journal, then my writings here and for school will be nothing short of literary gems.

Yep.  See you soon.

Tell me if this is a normal person thing or just a weird me thing. I’m not really sure.

Do you guys ever fall in love with an idea? I mean, hardcore, heart in your mouth, butterflies in your stomach, nervous, sweaty in love with an idea?

Does it become some kind of driving force behind your thoughts, a kind of background music to your day? Is it something that you just can’t shake, something that seems to bubble up from inside of you? And, even though it’s crazy, you find that this idea is on par with food, water, and shelter when it comes to the list of things you need to survive?

It’s not being OCD. It’s not like being on some kind of maniac trip. It’s just this all-abiding passion for one singular idea.

No? Just me? Ok.

Sigh

 

Oh by the way…

I forgot to mention it, but I’m totally doing BEDA. I’m a loser with no life and no friends so I may as well devote my time to the internet 😛 Just kidding! (or am I….?)

For the uninitiated, BEDA is Blog Everyday in April. This will be the third year I’ve done it. I love BEDA for the same reason I love NaNoWriMo or Drawtober or any other monthly challenge. It gives me a tangible goal for my creativity. I try to mix it up and post things from poetry to lists to explanations on why I like Highlander: The Quickening even though it was a horrendous mess of blah-ness. If  you have a topic you would like me to blog about, feel free to share it.

That is all! 🙂 See ya tomorrow

More Poetry

So, for those of you who don’t know, I often think in poetry. (I can also have entire conversations in iambic pentameter so…) Basically, what this translates to is a notebook full of poems that may or may not be relevant to anyone, including myself. But through the magic of the internet, I now have a place to share my work and victims…er readers to enjoy it. Bwahahahahaha. So without further ado, a poem:

I love the way you smirk when I say “Perhaps”

It’s a lapse in my reason, treason to my heart

Starting a revolution, full of convolutions, pollution

Of my freedom, ending a reign of sending suitors flying

Replying, “I’m better off alone.”

 

I love the way you expertly play at my heart-strings

Ringing them like a bell. I’m no hard sell, I’m gone

Belonging to you wholly, lulling my mind

Into kind thoughts of mankind, a blindness I despise

And realizing the double face I’ve placed over

The common sense I held dear.

 

You’re a sore boring into the core of me.

Is it a tragedy, this strange malady claiming me?

No turning back. I lack rearview mirrors. And tears

Pour from my eyes, a surprise when you know

The passionate joy within.

I’ve missed you!

Well, hello! I feel like it’s been a while. I’ve been off having adventures, and as a result, I’ve neglected you. Please forgive me.

I’m back now! Hope your summer’s been as lovely as mine.  I’ve explored a new library, bought sock moneys, turned one friend’s house into candy land, turned another friend’s yard into a Hawaiian paradise complete with inflatable flamingos and palm trees, written poetry, done a lot of thinking, and overall, been a busy, crazy, lazy teenager!

Honestly, it’s all been great. There are only two things I’d change about my summer. I haven’t read anywhere close to as much as I would have liked, and I wish I had more alone time. I love my friends, but spending this evening by myself has reminded me of my love for solitude .

The trick is balancing the two: socialization and solitude. Too much of either isn’t wise. Over-socializing is the one I have the most dislike for. It’s funny, because my sister is exactly the opposite.

On another topic altogether, have you ever done something and had the distinct feeling you were doing something wrong even though you weren’t? Or, to phrase it another way, have you ever felt guilty about something there was no reason to feel guilty about? How do you deal with that?