What is the what

Sometimes, when I’m stressed or emotional, I’ll  listen to Ke$ha. There is no logical reason for this. There’s just something kinda cathartic about the shallow lyrics, repetitive choruses, and the fact that each song is about 85% electronic. I don’t get it. It’s really embarrassing, and it’s not something I’d admit if put on the spot.

But this is what my life looks like right now…

Scene:  A girl sits alone on the floor of a typical suburban bedroom. She is surrounded by piles and piles of books, papers, binders, notebooks, and note-cards.  Colorful college brochures are scattered here and there, like wounded birds, half buried beneath dirty laundry and a smattering of glasses and bowls. In front of her is a computer that has seen better days. The girl herself is a haggard-looking 18 year old with a short pixie cut that looks more like a bird’s nest than hair.  She wears leggings, a crumpled t-shirt advertising some nerdy (yet vaguely mainstream) TV show, and over-the-ear headphones. She is seated criss-cross applesauce, and is shoveling chocolate pudding into her face. She is teary in a way that would make her mascara run, if she ever had the time or energy to figure out how to put on mascara (also if she wasn’t terrified of mascara, but that’s another story…).

Girl (crying and singing at the same time): “Stephen, why won’t you call me? I’m sitting here waiting. Why won’t you call me? Stephen, I’m feeling pathetic. I can’t take rejection. Why won’t you call me?”  (breaks into sobs, stops singing) Ke$ha’s right I am pathetic. I don’t even know who Stephen is, but he’ll never call. Why would he? I hate my life. Why am I such a loser?! (shovels more pudding into her mouth) Why would any college ever accept me, if Stephen won’t even call?!?

The girl stops, thinks for a moment, and shakes out of it.

What am I talking about??? I don’t even know any Stephens! I have like 5 papers to do before tomorrow. Come on! I’m an intelligent, independent woman. I’ve got this. Focus! I should just st0p listening to this cra…oh no (as she goes to click the mouse, the song changes. She bursts into ears again and starts singing) “I’m dancing with tears in my eyes, just fighting to get through the night. I’m losing it (cries harder) looosing it, loosing iit. With every move I die” (she stops singing, and wipes at her eyes)I can’t even…(sobs)

Lately,there has been a lot of Ke$ha in my play queue.

Hello

I’m sorry for missing the last two days. I’m just… stressed. Doing this 17 credits thing is already overwhelming. It’s crushing my SOOOUUUUUULLLL!!!!!! And cue Beethoven’s 5th Symphony.

Speaking of  Beethoven’s 5th, at 12, when I still believed I was God’s gift to the song-writing world, I actually wrote lyrics for the first 35 seconds of that symphony. And to apologize for missing two days of BEDA, I will share those lyrics with you:

Looking at you, looking at me

Wondering if this is the end of all I see

Hoping that maybe one day I will be free

But when I think I’m on the brink

It all caves in on me

Is this the end?

Have I no friend who will spend their life with me?

Is my enemy the only one I’ll ever see?

Seeing his face, my heart does race

Goes a pace that makes me feel my head begin to reel

in a whirl it twirls

The sad thing is, for years I actually thought I had improved this masterpiece through the addition of my lyrics. *Shakes head in embarrassment at younger self.

 Is all forgiven? Yes? No? Maybe?

  Good! (or bad…)

  c u tmrow 4 rlz!

My life by Regina Spektor

Image via Wikipedia

This is a fun questionnaire. You can only use one artist. Their song titles provide the answers to the questions. Don’t repeat any titles!

My Artist: Regina Spektor

Are you male or female?:
Lady

Describe yourself:
Genius Next Door

How do you feel about yourself?:
Sunshine

Describe where you currently live:
Another Town

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?:
No Surprises

Your favorite form of transportation:
Back of a Truck

Your best friend is:
Hero Of the Story

Your favorite color is:
2.99 Cent Blues

Favorite time of day?:

That Time

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?:
Human of the Year

What is life to you?:
Love Affair

What is the best advice you’ve given?:
One More Time With Feeling

If you could change your name, what would it be?:
December

Thought for the day:
Time is All Around

How would you like to die?:
Laughing With

Your motto:

Ne Me Quitte Pas

10 Things I Love

I’m far too distracted by all my summer activities to write a SQUIRREL! serious post. I have 5 in the works, but I keep getting distracted. But they are coming. Pinkie promise!

1. I need this bench for my room.I’m running out of book space…again!

“I would be most content if my children grew up to be the kind of people who think decorating consists mostly of building enough bookshelves.”  ~Anna Quindlen.

“Books are not made for furniture, but there is nothing else that so beautifully furnishes a house.  ~Henry Ward Beecher”

 

 

 

2. I know…more ponies. But it’s Serenity! Come on! That’s just epic.

3.

This was the first episode of Doctor Who that scared me at all. But it also made me laugh like crazy, which is why I love this poster.

4. My summer game plan:

 

5. I’ve been listening to The Alchemist over and over.

It’s a “…5-song concept album in the musical theater style. The Alchemist follows the tale of an aging alchemist desperate to create an elixir which will bring him back in time where he might save his childhood love from an untimely death.”

I really enjoy it! The whole thing can be listened to online using bandcamp but here’s a sampling: The Turn Part 1: The Choice by Mike Lombardo

6. And if you like that, you may like Frankenstein, another musical I’m into at the moment.

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8.  For those of you who are Harry Potter fans, this may just be the creepiest thing ever. Well, maybe not ever, but it’s pretty creepy. There’s a Parseltongue translator online that turns any phrase into creepy snake speech. Do with it what you will: parseltongue.php

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10.  I’m not a country music fan, but there are few things I enjoy more than dancing around singing country songs with my sister. Some Taylor Swift, a bit of Dixie Chicks, maybe a little Brooks & Dunn or Erin McCarley…oh yeah! We are awesome at lip synching!

Update

So, how are you?

….

That bad? 😦 Sorry!

I’m actually pretty happy, even though I have tons of work to do in three hours or less. I’m slightly insane, I think.

I’m happy mostly because of the music I’m listening to. Music makes me happy! My favorite bands of the day are Hellogoodbye and Plain White T’s. For Plain White T’s, I love 1 2 3 4, Hey Delilah (yeah, I know, right? 😛 ), and my personal favorite,  Irrational Anthem.

“Pledge of allegiance everybody stand up
this is our Irrational Anthem
we don’t care if they don’t understand us
this is our Irrational…
Irrational Anthem”

And then there’s Hellogoodbye!

Seriously, though, I want to buy every single Hellogoodbye album.  Their music makes me incredibly joyous! It’s like an upbeat walk through downtown. Or something equally cliche but awesome.

Favorites include “When We First Met”, “All of Your Love”, “Oh, It is Love”,  and “Touchdown Turn Around”.

Ok, have to write an essay about morality and Macbeth. Bye! Hope the rest of your day is better!!!!!