Monthly Archives: May 2011

Some Thoughts about Hearts


A heart is an interesting thing. It can be hard as stone, cold as ice, fragile as glass, burning like an ember. It can be broken, stolen, lost, mislaid, and given. One thing that many people don’t realize is that a heart is not whole. It’s a half and it is always questing for its companion, whether its owner knows it or not.

This quest can lead to many misadventures, since everyone knows that hearts are nearsighted and so have a hard time telling each other apart. Sometimes, it isn’t until two hearts touch that they realize they are all wrong for each other. Others, a heart can be standing inches away from its match and miss it completely.

The worst scenario is when one heart finds its other half, but the half can’t see it. Then the heart aches terribly with a pain that knows no words. No matter who hard it may try, hearts can only see what they choose to, not what others tell them.

A philosophical soul once considered creating glasses for hearts to see each other as they really are. However, he became so caught up in his work that his own companion failed to catch his eye, though she stood faithfully by him for fifteen years. Needless to say, the glasses didn’t sell well.

So it seems that hearts are doomed to scurry about blindly hoping to find their other half. The pessimistic say it’s hopeless. Hearts should either give up the search, or settle down with a heart that is somewhat compatible. But there are a few who still believe that they will find their match. These hearts say the search makes the love worthwhile. After all, it would be all too easy to take love for granted if it were handed to you. What does your heart say, and will you listen?

Liking Is for Cowards. Go for What Hurts by Jonathan Franzen

Jonathan Franzen

The man behind the words

I read this amazing opinion piece on the New York Times website.  It’s about technology and love. It was really thought-provoking. It makes you question love, and the value that is found in taking risks. In a world of Facebook and texting, I think that is extremely poignant. I’m going to link the entire thing at the bottom, but here’s the portion I loved. (All credit to Jonathan Franzen):

“The simple fact of the matter is that trying to be perfectly likable is incompatible with loving relationships. Sooner or later, for example, you’re going to find yourself in a hideous, screaming fight, and you’ll hear coming out of your mouth things that you yourself don’t like at all, things that shatter your self-image as a fair, kind, cool, attractive, in-control, funny, likable person. Something realer than likability has come out in you, and suddenly you’re having an actual life.

Suddenly there’s a real choice to be made, not a fake consumer choice between a BlackBerry and an iPhone, but a question: Do I love this person? And, for the other person, does this person love me?

There is no such thing as a person whose real self you like every particle of. This is why a world of liking is ultimately a lie. But there is such a thing as a person whose real self you love every particle of. And this is why love is such an existential threat to the techno-consumerist order: it exposes the lie.

This is not to say that love is only about fighting. Love is about bottomless empathy, born out of the heart’s revelation that another person is every bit as real as you are. And this is why love, as I understand it, is always specific. Trying to love all of humanity may be a worthy endeavor, but, in a funny way, it keeps the focus on the self, on the self’s own moral or spiritual well-being. Whereas, to love a specific person, and to identify with his or her struggles and joys as if they were your own, you have to surrender some of your self.

The big risk here, of course, is rejection. We can all handle being disliked now and then, because there’s such an infinitely big pool of potential likers. But to expose your whole self, not just the likable surface, and to have it rejected, can be catastrophically painful. The prospect of pain generally, the pain of loss, of breakup, of death, is what makes it so tempting to avoid love and stay safely in the world of liking.

And yet pain hurts but it doesn’t kill. When you consider the alternative — an anesthetized dream of self-sufficiency, abetted by technology — pain emerges as the natural product and natural indicator of being alive in a resistant world. To go through a life painlessly is to have not lived. Even just to say to yourself, “Oh, I’ll get to that love and pain stuff later, maybe in my 30s” is to consign yourself to 10 years of merely taking up space on the planet and burning up its resources. Of being (and I mean this in the most damning sense of the word) a consumer.”

What Ifs, Maybes, and Might-have-beens


Maybe one day, you’ll see

What I’ve seen all along

That, despite everything

We can still be- we exist

In the midst of the thick

Of this battle, this war

Worn down, sore

Fighting off a tragedy

Right outside our door

Open up and the darkness

Comes in, black as sin

So we hold on tight

One small light, holding

Back the whole night

Isn’t much but we might

Make it through

Maybe I’m crazy but

I see a future coming

I know it’s hazy

If hope’s crazy, I’ll keep it

Believe in it in spite of the

Doubt that crowds out

All else It’s a shout

A battle cry in the sky

Holding evil on standby

Maybe is the language

Of a people in bondage

Dreaming of a day that

They can play in the sun

Skip and run.

It’s the dream of a people

Tired of originals turned into

Sequels just to continue again

On a never ending spin

Cycle turning mediocrity

Into a recyclable item

Passed on through generations

Carried through a nation

Heartsick and brain-dead

Lie-fed, retreading

The same junk from

Fifty years ago

Let it go. Move on into

The world of ifs

Let’s go back to you and me

And the maybe of us

Trust me. We need each other.

(This is something I wrote for English. Critique is appreciated.  Thanks guys!)

Good Morning!


Hi! I actually got up at a decent time today and decided to give you a few of my favorite morning quotes!

“When you arise in the morning, think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive – to breathe, to think, to enjoy, to love. ”
-Marcus Aurelius

“The light which puts out our eyes is darkness to us. Only that day dawns to which we are awake. There is more day to dawn. The sun is but a morning star.”
-Henry David Thoreau

“A leaf fluttered in through the window this morning, as if supported by the rays of the sun, a bird settled on the fire escape, joy in the task of coffee, joy accompanied me as I walked.”
-Anais Nin

“It is a common experience that a problem difficult at night is resolved in the morning after the committee of sleep has worked on it. ”
-John Steinbeck

“Morning without you is a dwindled dawn.”
-Emily Dickinson

“I’m always thinking about creating. My future starts when I wake up every morning… Every day I find something creative to do with my life. ”
-Miles Davis

“Today I choose life. Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain… To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices – today I choose to feel life, not to deny my humanity but embrace it. ”
-Kevyn Aucoin

“Make sure you never, never argue at night. You just lose a good night’s sleep, and you can’t settle anything until morning anyway.”
-Rose Kennedy

“I am never at my best in the early morning, especially a cold morning in the Yorkshire spring with a piercing March wind sweeping down from the fells, finding its way inside my clothing, nipping at my nose and ears. ”
-James Herriot

However, as inspiring as these quotes are, my favorite way to start with day is with a little Disney, Darren Criss style!

Have a great morning, or afternoon, or whatever it is when you read this!

Another “Things I Like” Post? Really?


What can I say? I like a lot of things, and I don’t have a Tumblr! This one’s heavy on the geek side.

1. trazzler_slide_show_beautiful_bookstores

I have been to one bookstore from this slide show, and would gladly go to any of the others (read: biggest understatement ever!)

2. I think that this show is either going to be awesome and exciting or crap. Either way, I’m going to give it a shot. Alcatraz will premiere this fall, if my info is correct.

3.  I have mixed emotions about this: I’m actually kind of nervous about how this movie will turn out. If they ruin the Hunger Games, I will not be a happy camper.

4.  It’s (semi) official! I’m going to a Comicon this spring with my buddies/homies/companions/sidekicks! I’ll keep you informed on its progress.

5. Breaking out in song to express how you feel. Yes, I do this (Look through my archives). My life should be a musical! That would make me incredibly happy.

6.This is so funny to me. Firefly crew in Star Trek uniforms labeled “Star Wars”. I know. I’m a nerd…

7. I can’t wait for the fourth movie! Pirates of the Caribbean is such a fun series! Here’s hoping they don’t mess it up!

8.  Blueberry muffin cereal. If you haven’t tried it, do (try it, I mean). If you have, you should tell me if you love it as much as I do!

9.  This page  is where I get wallpaper for my computer. Not only are they nerdy, but they are also beautifully done.

10.  The Hobbit movie is going to be awesome! I’m rereading my copy of the book in eager anticipation. I love my copy. It’s hard-bound, green, and lap-sized. It has the most wonderful illustrations.

And that’s all, folks! Chat at you later!

Doctor Who Season 1

Christopher Eccleston as the Ninth Doctor

Good-bye, #9

This is a brief post to say I finally finished it. I made it through the first season of Doctor Who. I have to admit that I cried a little. I’ll miss Christopher Eccleston. Obviously, he hasn’t been the Doctor for 6 years, but he’s been my Doctor for the last couple of months. I am excited to see how Tennant will do. It’s going to be interesting. I’ll keep you updated.

10 Things I love today


1. I bought this today for $4.  I did some research, and it usually costs between $10-$20! I’m so happy! It has creamy blank pages, a ribbon marker, and a pocket in the back. It reminds me of the Grail diary from “Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade“. It isn’t identical, but still! Pure epicness.

2. This video. There’s a little bit of  language. As a girl who isn’t graduating from high school, but is starting college, this seems really relevant to my life at the moment. It’s good stuff.


4.  Robert Walton in the first few letters from “Frankenstein”. He is conceited, arrogant, and wordy to thew point of being funny. Dude is a frustrated writer. It’s too bad the poetry gig didn’t work out.  With that verbose prose…it’s really overwhelming.

5.  I love the Leia/Han romance. It might be my favorite part of Star Wars. Might.

6. music_movie-loves-a-screen.php  

I love this song!

“Maybe what I mean to say
Is that I think about you in the most romantic of ways
And I’m hoping you’ll be open to discussing us and nothing in between

Maybe what I mean is that I love you more than any other I’ve seen
If you couldn’t tell well I hope you’re quite keen on it
Like a rhyme loves a sonnet
Like a movie loves a screen
that’s what I wanna mean to you”

Thank you April Smith. This made my day!

7.  Three-way calling. It’s incredible how much more you can accomplish when you don’t have to call someone, ask a question, hang up, call someone else, answer their question etc. in a endless cycle.

8. It’s just so perfect!

9.  If I don’t wear a dress like Kate Middleton’s, which I loved, I want to wear one like this:

10.  You!