As my college classes are going well, I have no excuse for avoiding blogging. Guilt-free blogging! Yay!
So, I’m no expert when it comes to romance. Big shocker, I know. However, even though I have little to no experience myself, my friends seem to find me a good source of advice. Why is that?
I wonder about romantic relationships. I truly do. It seems like most of the time, it’s a beautiful game of playing catch with hearts. Everyone has fun until one heart gets dropped, or a person throws their heart carelessly, or the other person is just not able to catch the heart in time. More often than not, someone gets hurt.
Maybe I’m pessimistic. Maybe I’m just being realistic. However, I have a hard time believing I can find true love. Is there such a thing? Do “soul-mates” exist? My parents would say so. They believe that they were truly made for each other. But it took so much heartache for them to find each other.
Is that what it’s all about? Is pain the key to love? Or, to put it another way, do you have to suffer for love to be real? At least theoretically, that makes sense. Love is sacrifice. It’s about viewing another person as more important. So, it would make sense that it would hurt once in a while.
On a personal level, I don’t really want to put my hurt out there. It will more than likely get battered and bruised. At the same time, I want love. I want that passion. I want to fins someone who is “worth it”.
Or maybe I’m just crazy!
Between college, high school, soccer, and other adventures, I’ve been busy. I regret nothing! Actually, I do regret not blogging, but as it is impossible to change the past (w/o help from the Doctor), I’ve decided that whining about the neglection of my blogging duties is useless as well as annoying.
As part of an assignment for my incredible English class, we had to think of something we valued intrinsically that had little instrumental value. For those of you who don’t know what that means, “Something is said to have intrinsic value if it is good “in and of itself,” i.e., not merely as a means for acquiring something else…Something is said to have instrumental value if it is good because it provides the means for acquiring something else of value.”(http://darwin.eeb.uconn.edu/eeb310/lecture-notes/value-ethics/node2.html)
I chose dreams.
I value dreams intrinsically. Of course, some dreams can be instrumental in helping me realize my own wants and fears. However, I think that dreaming about pandas or saving Scotland is important, even if those dreams have no practical use.
An exciting thing about my dreams is that, although they are influenced by things I do, I have no real control over the type of dream I will have. In other words, I’m the creator but I have no idea what I’m creating. One night I may dream of zombies and the next about a garden party complete with tea and cakes.
If I were to stop dreaming, would it affect my life? Well, in many ways, it would not. I would still go to school. I would still have chores. Heck, I’d still have my imagination. Yet I do think I would feel the loss. I’d miss falling asleep knowing I could dream of anything. I’d miss the craziness of my dreams, including the plot holes I wouldn’t tolerate from a book or movie. And I’d miss the freedom. I create dreams without consciously knowing what I’m doing. That means there’s no restraint on how scary or weird or impossible a dream can be. It’s creativity without a filter and I certainly think that’s valuable.
So, yeah. It’s officially been far too long since I’ve blogged. The reasons for my absence are many and varied, but I won’t get into that. The main point is that I’ve returned!
The funny thing about not blogging after being a blogger for a decent period of time is that your brain still categorizes everything as “blog material” or “not blog material”.
An example of how this works:
- Explaining the ins and outs of zombies to your mom- blog material
- Reading a book that says that the Doctor travels via teleportation and travels with “assistants” – maybe angry rant blog material
- Eating a sandwich- not blog material
- Getting in a glow stick war- blog material
This is just an ‘I’m alive!” post, but I plan to actually blog…soon,
I’ve finally surrendered to the fact that I need (ok, really, really want) a tumblr. We’ll see how this goes.
How does this affect you as a reader of this blog? Well, it doesn’t…much. All that it means is that there will be less 10 Things I Love posts, since I will be posting those things on my tumblr.
If you decide it’s worth your time to check it out, you can find me at http://ifimjuliet.tumblr.com/
It’s a weird experience to post your words online. It makes you incredibly vulnerable. When I first decided to set out on this blogging adventure, I really wasn’t sure what to expect. You would think I would be afraid of negativity. What I really was afraid of, though, was that I would spend all this time pouring my heart out…and no one would even read it. Well, I may not be on the top of WordPress, but I do have people reading my work. And let me tell you, it’s incredible!
I haven’t been criticized or attacked. All that I’ve heard is encouragement. So I’m writing to say thanks. I appreciate every comment, suggestion, and view. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and you have helped me see this as a viable possibility.
Finals are coming up, so I’ll probably be MIA until June 18th or so. I may do a couple of 10 Things I Like posts, but not much else. I’ll be posting throughout the summer, though, so that’s something. Please don’t stop coming! I have big plans for this blog, and I’d love for you to be a part of it. In fact, I really can’t do it without you!